Achya Begum’s days and nights revolve between half memory and half oblivion. In Ga Gula, the feeling of fever does not leave the body. Day by day, the relationship between the body and the bed has become darker. Great reluctance to eat.
Bilu, the only daughter, manages her children, husband and family and takes care of her mother with mechanical speed. Trying hard to do all the responsibilities of a doctor, starting from eating and drinking.
His house is two lanes away from his mother’s house. Residential area though. There is always traffic on the road. Taking out the car for such a long road is a big risk. Coming and going four or five times a day is not less of a challenge. So he sent both the girls twice. Granddaughters are also great-hearted. Only son settled abroad with family. It can’t be rushed anymore. And even if you come, you have to run to work again after a few days.
Nausea since this morning. Bilu vomited as he tried to force something into his mouth. Bilu cleaned everything with his own hands and put her on the bed and went to her house and sent the little girl to Nanu. And he said strictly, don’t sit with horse eggs on Facebook-Tesbook. I will take care of Nanu. I will cook it at home and bring it for your Nanud.
Oh mother, I know these things. Don’t waste time and do what you need to do.
After an hour, Bilur’s daughter calls and says, “Mom, come quickly.” how is nanu doing
After leaving the work, Bilu came running and saw a gurgling sound coming out of her mother’s throat. The star of the eye goes in and the white part comes out. Billu’s hands and feet tremble. Oh God, what is the danger? Billu’s father became anxious. Some of the people who came near-back, came and said – died, some said – dying. Someone says – bring a doctor, someone says – there is probably no use. If there is time, the Lord will teach him repentance.
Billu’s head does not work in this random state. Just bursting into tears. Both eyes become blurred. Nevertheless, Mamader took the initiative to save the energy in his mind. Mother’s brother and uncle, these are the closest; They should be informed first. But where is the mobile? Searching for it was found in his own hands. Perhaps this is how people become disorientated in danger. But while dialing the number, the instability increases. In the end, I was able to call my uncle’s number and say that my uncle’s condition is very bad. Probably dying. what to do You come quickly.
Bilu’s younger uncle is a soft hearted person. He was in a Milad Mahfil. One is the noise of the crowd, the other is the frightened voice of the niece. He hears Mama, Mama is dead. Probably did not hear it. And if you get what, it means how long to go?
She is the youngest sister among three sisters and two brothers. The older sister died of cancer ten years ago. Mezzo sister’s words of affection, compassion and love appeared in a moment. Even when he grew up, he did not say a word above the words of his younger brothers. Courage and strong poles stand by in danger. Did he leave us destitute? Bilu’s younger uncle could not think anymore. He sat down with his hands on his chest. He is a heart patient. The people sitting next to them became restless as to what happened. He said in a low voice with great pain, “My mezzo sister is dead.” Everyone knew the sister was sick, but no one knew that she was sick enough to die. A few people nearby took Bilu’s younger uncle Khan Sahib to the house.
Hearing this news, everyone in the house started lamenting. He left in whatever condition he was in.
Big uncle, little uncle, little aunt all the family members left together with their own cars.
The car is moving in Billy Katekoot. The driver is trying his best to move ahead with a skillful hand, while the passengers of the car seem to be standing still. Little uncle’s daughter is crying her eyes out for the two pupis. Wherever there is a jam, they say let us get out of the car and walk.
Everyone reached and cried for a while with Bilud. Bilu said, the situation would have gone on for so long, probably only because of you, the vein is running, repentance has been taught, many people are praying.
But the uncle reached and said, when the vein is still weak, take it to the doctor.
Bilu’s father cries and says, what will happen to him, if…
Little uncle said firmly, what will happen; Take it to the doctor first. What is the problem to bring back if necessary?
The race started. The delay of the ambulance could not be tolerated. Little uncle laid down in the back seat of his car and started the journey.
When taken to a private hospital, the doctors checked everything and returned it and said – it is not possible, they brought it too late. Everyone’s request with pity, try it once. Whatever happens, I will get peace of mind.
Sary: There is a possibility that something will happen in a while, if you want you can show it elsewhere. I don’t think you will get the expected news.
The doctors tried to explain the words in very humble, humble and polite language. Uncle did not give up, took to another hospital. Even there doctors are hopeless. Even though the patient’s condition is critical, let’s try. If something happens, don’t you burn, vandalize, vandalize again?
No, no, we came knowing everything. Now it’s a matter of luck, and if God helps.
Treatment started. The doctors first found that the blood pressure was severely flawed. The dreaded condition of hypo-glycemia. Within a few moments of receiving these two treatments, the patient became agitated. The rest of the experiment continued. That’s how everyone got back to life.
Although there were some diseases before, the medicine was not taken properly. Grossly neglected. The result of which left with so far.
After the rest of the investigation, it was found that both the kidneys were in poor condition. Shortness of breath and brain stroke. And two heart attacks had already happened.
When he realizes the strong smell of hospital medicine, the dripping of the saline needle, various memories are buzzing in his head. He sees his past.
The blooming flowers on the banks of the river seem to enhance the beauty of the river. Bunch of purple flowers in the bush, they are calling with a hand. That is the river, I am sitting on the bank of the river with my two-year-old daughter Biluke. The naughty girl is running big. What if it falls into the water? He tries to pull her in her arms saying come here, come here. Bilu, who is sitting next to him, shakes his hand and says, Mother is saying something? Need something?
Mother gets lost in the whirlwind again.
Came home forcefully before fully reviving. There was no way not to bring it. The group rescued the doctors and nurses and left.
After recovering a bit, Begum was surprised to hear the people who had come to see the new life of the dead and their conversations. I was really gone? Bilur’s great uncle said, God’s infinite mercy has given you time, now pray with your heart. Give thanks.
Although alive, life is not as healthy as before. When he does what, when he says, he himself does not know. On this day, the hair of the head is being cut with scissors, unnoticed by everyone.
Seeing that Bilu says, what did mother do? If someone sees them, they will say that they have been caught stealing chickens.
He looked at it with surprised eyes and thought, what is the girl saying, isn’t her headache bad?
The doctor says, you are lucky, so only the hair is cut. Such patients can do more serious things. Many times they can stab their own throat, or even the other throat. It is a type of hallucination.
Since then, everyone is under surveillance all the time.
I remember the fresh words of youth. Go back and forth and say the same things, Bilu, tin rice making a torrential noise, isn’t it raining? I want to sleep on the sheet. Put a sheet on me and sleep a little.
Bilu laughs and says, the sound of tin rice in the building! I got up sweating in the heat. The fan on the head is running non-stop, it does not work without AC at night and you are saying that I will give you a sheet?
Yes, can’t you hear the monsoon frog call?
No mom, I can’t get it.
And the frogs don’t call now, do they? How to call? They all sit in cartons and go abroad by plane. Those who can’t go, they go to Chinese restaurants. So perhaps their calls are not heard.
Billu, you have seen how the leaves of the leafy tree have sprouted.
Bring it by the coach load, I will make a garland.
Bilu listens silently and looks at mother with a sigh and thinks, the body full of fat is free of fat, although it is a great illusion to look at the body. It doesn’t seem like a body. It seems to be just a balloon going silent.
Mother was a good housewife and a very good cook. Gasa’s hand was better than that. He who eats once never forgets. As such, the market is not interested. How did he know the good stuff, I wondered. He still said in a daze, “Bilu has cut up 20 chickens in the fridge, washed them and kept them clean. I will cook the chicken well.”
Chapa Shuntki has been selected, big and fragrant. Wash well and make the filling. Raw chilies, dry chilies too.
Look at this billu, the little vines your father has brought are very beautiful. Thin, green flickering. Pick and choose. Cook with hilsa in oil.
The memories of past sorrows, angers, failures are sometimes devastating. Sighing, I spent my life eating, sleeping and doing housework. What did I leave on earth? I understand that the human race has gone in vain. If I could arrange my life from the beginning, I would clean up the mistakes that have been made in this life. But he is not to be.
Bilu says in a tone of affection, mother can do everything? People leave, their actions remain. Loved people, gave to the needy, fed the hungry, even stood up and protected the thief or someone who was hurt – for this or less? Achia Begum looked at the girl’s face with a frown.
Day by day the body started getting worse. The legs are as heavy as two stones. Abdominal water throbbing, beautiful mouth watery toe drum, no movement. Her husband of 45 years of married life is doing all this by giving medicine in front of her, taking her to the bathroom, bathing, changing her clothes, shampooing her hair and tying it with oil, cutting her fingernails, pulling mosquito nets and putting her to bed. Despite that, all the moods, all the roughness fell on him, sometimes scolding and insulting Bilu at will. They know, the doctor said, this patient will do the same. He doesn’t do it on purpose. Extend your helping hand as long as you live.
At this time the body is good and at other times it is bad. The doctor said, it will remain like this for as long as the above person has given his life. The body is very bad since this morning. Achia Begum holds her husband’s hand and says, I don’t know when it will happen. Let’s talk about something. Life is short. I think this is about that day. In fact, I didn’t even realize that so many years had passed from my life. Birth means moving towards death. This is the eternal truth, this must be accepted. Everyone makes mistakes in their journey together in life. Don’t forget, forgive me.
Bilu’s father says, forgive me too. Begum said with a gentle smile, there is no way to do it? what you did for me I have passed the life by shaking. I didn’t put the disease on my body. At the end of the day, I feel great for life. It is possible to live large. I think to myself, if I wake up and see that life has become the same as before. The disease of the body has been cured. But alas, this was never to happen. I am afraid of so much affection, love, affection. If you have those things, it is very difficult to leave the world. The mind throbbed with pain. Bilu’s father cries and says, don’t say that. I feel helpless, leaving me alone where will you go? Live long, this is the great desire of my soul. With a smile on her lips and tears in her eyes, Begum said, “Didn’t you hear what the poet said?”
I will not let go
Still have to let go.
Still goes.
