These days, I really want to hug myself. When I was young, I used to talk to myself alone, and the sorcerer said, ‘I have a bad jinn.’ Now it seems that I am my own bad jinn! Only I know how cleverly I avoid people’s company. I always try to push through the crowd and get out as quickly as possible. When I sit with someone, instead of discussing myself, we create a party by badmouthing others. The proof of how skillfully people ruin a party is found in backbiting and complaining about others. I don’t understand whether this tendency to be alone, walk alone, and talk alone is beneficial or harmful. But I understand this much, I am fine, Alhamdulillah.
Can you walk without a companion? Can you explain your thoughts to someone? It is difficult to spend even a single day without a friend. However, with people who have a relationship of mutual interest, you have to work hard to hold yourself together. You have to hear harsh words, and you have to be slandered and insulted. One has to keep up with the burden of being humiliated. The person who mixes with the most people has to promise to be alone. Nowadays, people save their interests while laughing, cheat to keep a hand on their shoulder, or stab their hearts with words during a hug. The one who is alone has actually escaped the damage of the mind.
It is difficult to spend the rest of the day with those who poke at the corners of conversation and give painful pain in the chest. When everyone suppresses and stops the one who stands with the face of doing good, then he too wants to escape from this society. For whom does society bring comfort? There is a lot of comfort here for the hypocrites, for the thieves, for the cheaters, or for the dishonest and deceitful! Everything good has been forbidden for good people. The good people with the light can no longer be found in the markets, colleges and universities, or at the center of politics, society, or the economy – everyone is now accustomed to a life of homelessness on the principle of “let’s go alone”! They do not want to live the rest of their lives living an ideal and accept the curse of bankruptcy!
Seeing the habit of writing pure in adulterated things, the movement to establish evil, those few people who still exist are trying to return to the other side in shame! Here, in this movement, it is difficult not to be alone! If you speak, it is dangerous. If you make a mistake, it is punished. So, if you focus on yourself, you can live without any problems for a few more days! For those who could not sell their conscience, who did not merge with the current of evil, the world is almost hell. Here, if you are asleep, you have fewer enemies than if you are awake. I do not know the number of friends – that is why you have to wait for death! There were as many friends as there were who sighed when they heard the news of grief.
You cannot actually live alone – you have to be forced to live. If you do not find a person who is like your heart, if you do not get the assurance of happiness or if no one gives you hope – it is difficult to live by holding someone’s hand as a beggar. Where trust is lost, relationships become shaky. The tension is no longer felt as before. The feeling of waiting does not even arise from the mind. The one who has seen the incredible face of the world, the one in front of whom the wall of relationships has collapsed – he is actually alone. Even among billions of people, he is alone. Even at the peak of wealth, he is alone. Even in deep sleep, his loneliness is felt. As he walks, a deadly loneliness grips him. This emptiness unites him with the void. Yet, one day, in this void, he may find himself, and a new story will begin.
